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553,583 notes (via temperedmuslimah & emmaorwhatever)
First summer as a Muslim, also first summer as a Hijabi. It’s 37 Celsius, the air com in my car is broken and I have two hours of driving to do today.
The only thing that keeps me going is the thought that Jahannam is hotter than a Perth summer! (And the fact that my air con will be fixed on Thursday inshallah…)
Inshallah Allah will help you in your marriage and make his family understanding.
Inshallah… Although I honestly believe there will always be slight issues because of our cultural differences I pray Allah gives us all the strength to work through these, inshallah.
How long have you been Muslim?
I took my shahada on the 22nd July this year, alhamdulillah. However I had been learning about Islam for approx. 3 years prior.
Sometimes I feel like I will never be good enough for him.
It might sound crazy, but I truly do. We both know the direction that our lives took is what we both least expected. Him- the Pakistani boy studying abroad and working his butt off to support his family. He would be likely to return to Pakistan and to an arranged marriage with a ‘typical’ Pakistani Muslim girl. Me- the white Kiwi who would have been expected to get drunk at least twice a week, have numerous “boyfriends” and eventually settle down with someone of my choosing. Well this was not Allah’s plan for us. Things worked out far from the way we had envisioned.
One of the interesting things about marrying a foreigner is the extremely long Skype calls! Most of these have been lots of fun. Crazy children, numerous aunties, and everyone trying to talk at once. One of the problems though is the language barrier. With my non-existent Urdu and their extremely limited English it can get pretty confusing.
Last night we skyped with a couple of female cousins. We showed them our house, etc. and I started talking with a woman who had reasonably good English. She started asking me if I was praying, if I was reading Quran, etc. and I just froze. She said “you must pray five times!” Almost as if she was disgusted with me. I’m still living with my parents and they do not know that I’m Muslim, so everything is done in secret.
I went to my bedroom and just sobbed. Curled into a tight ball and cried my heart out. I haven’t cried so hard in a very long time. I just felt so bad. “How can I possibly be a suitable wife for him? I’ll never be good enough. They think I’m a joke, etc. etc.” was all that was running through my head. It took a lot of hugs and convincing to get me to calm down. I probably overreacted and was feeling extremely sensitive due to lack of sleep, etc. but I don’t think any born Muslim can truly understand the struggles that a convert goes through.
Hubby and his cousin explained about the whole culture difference… They both said they had never even met a convert before moving to Australia, and rarely even saw ‘white’ people. They don’t understand what life is like in Australia. It’s like going against everything your parents have ever taught you… Changing things about yourself completely, and this transition certainly doesn’t happen overnight. It’s a process. It’s a learning experience. You learn things and overcome challenges every single day. It’s not easy, but nothing good ever is.
I need to remind myself more often that the only one who can judge me is Allah. The only person I need to please is myself. Nothing else matters. I don’t pray for anyone except myself and Allah, and I didn’t convert for anyone other than myself and Allah. It is and always will be this way. Alhamdulillah.
There are still moments in my life where I’ll receive a hug from someone female, usually someone who doesn’t know that I don’t hug, or avoid physical contact in general.
In fact, on Eid al-Adha, a couple of weeks ago, a girl saw me after the prayer, walks right up to me opens her arms and hugs me, in front of something like 1000 Muslims. And I didn’t stop her.
Before, as someone was coming in for the hug, I’d just be like “NO. I DONT HUG BRO.” Which worked.. but isn’t a particularly pleasant way to go about it.
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By the beginning of next month inshallah my husband and I will be living together! I am so incredibly excited to be able to practice Islam in my own home & have so much more freedom! To be honest… I just can’t wait to put my hijab on in front of a proper mirror (as opposed to my car’s rear view mirror), take my time with wudhu instead of rushing, enjoy every moment during prayer and my time with Allah (swt) and just sit on the sofa and read Quran or other Islamic books if I feel like it.
Alhamdulillah, every time things are rough & I feel like there’s no light at the end of the tunnel, He gives me something like this to lift my spirits.
Alhamdulillah for everything.
Asalaamu alkaikym sister Eid mubarak!! I read your post about your Eid and I hope that in the future you will have a wonderful time inshaAllah. I was wondering, since we are the same age and both converts, and you are married, how did you do it? Did your family protest? I hope this isn't too personal of a question I just don't have an example to follow or know what to expect :/ <3
Wa Alaikum Asalaam :) I met my husband and married him prior to converting to Islam. Actually, my parents protested a little to begin with but they like him a lot. They think he’s a really good person so in the end they agreed. I explained to them that it was really important to him and slowly talked them round. I converted to Islam less than three weeks after our nikkah but I had already been looking into Islam for three and a half years. I often think that Allah (swt) brought us together to bring me closer to Islam. A lot of people probably wonder why I didn’t convert before I married him, but I suppose I just didn’t feel ready yet. If you have any questions or just want to chat, feel free to message me :)
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